conundrum : a confusing or difficult problem

Synonyms: closed book, mystery, enigma, head-scratcher, mystification, puzzle, puzzlement, riddle, secret

I don’t know about you, but I have faced many conundrums in the course of my life.  Those damned if you do and damned if you don’t, or between a rock and a hard place situations have peppered my life. Either/or decisions seem impossible to make when there are no good alternatives. At times, I have decided not to decide and life has decided for me! Pro and con lists never worked for me, pros became cons and vice-versa. Yes I have been mystified, puzzled and scratched my head, but miraculously I am still alive making decisions every day.

Making and following through on poor decisions, is hands down, one of the best ways to learn. I have a Ph.D in poor decisions and problem solving. Getting to say “Been there, done that.” often is one of the perks of growing older, but not possible without painful experiences. Wouldn’t it be nice, if at birth, a finite number of bad decisions were granted to us, i.e. Danita you are allowed 2346 bad choices in your lifetime. Maybe I would choose to get my bad decisions done before I was 35 and have the rest of my life to enjoy all the fruits of poor decisions— but what’s the fun in that? So I guess I have to tip toe through the tulips AND the land mines until I leave this earth.

The biggest conundrum I face is the question “Why am I here? or “What is my purpose?”  I think this riddle or puzzle needs to be solved, there must be an answer or solution,  but the more I think about it the more mystified I become. I am starting to believe that “thinking” about it will not get me very far, and now I am  considering that the answer is more likely to be found in being and doing.  Do this, do that, be this, be that. Thinking about helping others is useless to myself and others if I just think about it and don’t get off my ass to do helpful acts. I can know why I want to do something, but not how to do something. Life is one big experiment without having a clear hypotheses of what I am trying to prove or disprove. Standing still and waiting for life to explain itself to me is like waiting for miracles when they are all around us.

And now a riddle:

A prisoner is told “If you tell a lie we will hang you; if you tell the truth we will shoot you.” What can he say to save himself?

Think about it, think some more!!

The answer is”You will hang me.”